Killing Your Self

Ok..i wrote this on kuwait's network on facebook.com
in "Do You think once that you want to leave this life ?" Topic..

the topic was about if anybody thought of comitting suicide,,and i was one of them.
(Torn_Tool)helped me to recover from what i call sickness..anyway here is what i wrote :



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i've been asked if i ever thought about it..
and i answerd :
yup,,,i thought about that.... ALOT
2.i've been asked of what happend and why did i thought abut killing my self..

well i rather keep it to my self that is..

but here is what i can tell you....

i was really really sad i felt like i was rejected as a human,,i felt that there is no hope and it was too late for me to raise again or returen for the one who i used to be....i tried to forget but i realized that i will just waist my life of trying to forget something thats impossible to forget...my friends helped me to get through my problem...and i wont lie i really tried to kill my self by swallowing pills and i faild.

but after some time with the help of my friends,,i began to return to the that guy that i was..

and for the guys who are thinking of killing themselves right now
i say...it dosent worth it,,begin from step 1...take your time
think what was your mistake that led u to think like that ?
and when did u make that mistake ?
spend some time alone and think of it..

and when u find the answer that u were looking for
share it with your close friends,,,Real friends,,,or try telling them to somone on the internet A STRANGER,,that u think he will help you,,,cuz its the human nature to help somone who really needs help

and cheer up
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read these carefully :
these are my Favorite Quotes :

"keep your friends close, But your enemies closer"
Flaw - Only the Strong Survive

"If you try to fail, and succeed, which have you done?" - George Carlin
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and i want to talk about :
"If you try to fail, and succeed, which have you done?" - George Carlin

lets say ur 20 years old
and u killed tried to kill your self and u succeeded
which have u done ? win by killing your self
or fail by losing your life ?

think about it


peace
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the second post :

there are alot of ways that you can start again, as i said before :
"begin from step 1...take your time
think what was your mistake that led u to think like that ?
and when did u make that mistake ?
spend some time alone and think of it..
and when u find the answer that u were looking for
share it with your close friends"

and i like to add some ways that can help you change your negative life style to a positive one

when we are desperate we mostly like to be alone mostly in our rooms,we avoid seeing people or anyone.
this will have a huge effect on us for example like "Mariah Davies" said :
"1-do u feel sad
2- sleeping too much or too less
3- loss of energy
4- wieght loss or gain
5- diffeculty thinking
6- loss of intrest or pleasure
7- feeling worthless or inferior
8- thoughts of death"

thats why we need to change this life style in to a positve one.how?
like i said again:
"begin from step 1...take your time
think what was your mistake that led u to think like that ?
and when did u make that mistake ?
spend some time alone and think of it..
and when u find the answer that u were looking for
share it with your close friends" <<<--- (your saying now : WE GOT THE IDEA MOTHER F#&KER, NOW CONTINUE) :P

so while ur are talking to ur friends ( the internet is a great way, like what we are doing now, trying to learn from other experinces in life)

believe me when u start telling people what u really feel,u will fell like a huge thing just came out from u, u will feel lighter,
thats when u must ask your self ( do i like this lifestyle im living right now ?),
( do i need to change ?),and if u really really want to change U WILL, there is no doubt that u will change and be a better person. dont say that I CANT or i will NEVER return for the person i was.(NEVER SAY NEVER) stick it on your forehead. U WILL RETURN

so some people may ask how can i let this sad feeling in me go away ?
there are alot of things that u can do

1.work out or go and take a walk at this time u need to do some sports
sports is one of the greatest ways to remove stress from u << i highly recommend it

2.express ur self by drawing or painting ( try photoshop ) << i highly recommend this one too ( i still use it to express my feelings )

3.go to malls ( thank god Kuwait has 10000000000 malls ) go have a walk in malls( u dont need to buy something, u can go alone, with a friend is recommended

4.FISHING (your saying : WTF !!!?), i tried it,,, its FUN,,specially when u catch something,,u will be happy im 100% sure that u will be really happy when u cathc something,besides fishing help us to be patient

5.hearing songs ( to me i recommend a band named "Hurt" they've got really nice songs. (( hear whatever u want or hear something that u feel it gives u a meaing ))

mmmmm..what else.......

well these r the things that i have done that helped me, i hope it helps u too..


hope this will be helpful for all the people who read it

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